SO LITTLE TIME SO MUCH TO DO.

This time of year is when people get busier and busier in so little time. No matter what, you have to agree with me.

• Tell me, Xmas is coming, don’t you have to think of what you have to buy for xmas presents?
• Tell me, finals are coming, don't you all educated students need to put most of your time and immense effort to prepare for your finals?
• Tell me, all you workers don’t you have a lot of works and responsibilities to get done with since the winter holidays are coming?

I definitely have trouble dealing with time management. I certainly do recognize that I actually do have piles of projects due until next week and few upcoming finals, but still do not know how to handle them. If I think about it, “man, its Xmas time, it must be a joyful time of the year”, but instead, this time of year freaks myself out. I could not resist myself from this indolent side of me, which lead me to postponing all the things that I MUST do. I do not want to blame my laziness to anything, but sadly the weather in Vienna is killing my center of consciousness. (I’m really trying to stop the “complaining” habit of mine). I must say that when it comes to assignments or studying for finals, I myself am not a solicitous person. You know what, even my whole family agreed on the fact that I’m the most laziest person in the whole family, which may be true…? I see bunch of my colleagues who knows how to organize their time properly, and it speculates me. Its like, how in this sadden world are they able to manage their time wisely? This astonishes me perfectly. Oh, now I know what is my goal next year, “To be able to organize time wisely”. Yep, AMEN to that.

I must admit and come to the point that life is unfair. Its freaking XMAS TIME, but what I get is a box of present filled with piles of stuff to do, which could not bring me any closer to happiness. I’m telling you, this is fixity. IT IS.

PACAR

My boyfriend


To be really honest, I met my current boyfriend way before I met most of my exs. The thing is, my boyfriend and me lived in Tokyo years ago. I believe that there were several occasions where we saw each other but we never had the guts to even say the word “hi” to each other. We kind of had this close relationship (in a way) for the fact that most of his friends were my friends too. But still, we did not have any guts to talk to each other, how stupid we were. Then during the summer of 2007, my elementary friends and I decided to get together, which you call “reunion”, and I decided to call my “oh-so-boyfriend-gonna-be-guy” (I would not call him “boyfriend” because he wasn't my boyfriend yet and I got his number from my other friend) and ask him if he wanted to join us or not. I got this girly nervousness (excuse me for not knowing how to describe my actual feeling at that specific moment) while I was talking to him, but thank the Lord up there, he didn't talk as if I was a stranger (for the fact that we never really did communicate, and it was the first time, actually). How we got together and all that detail stuff, I would not describe it in this blog, but if you would like to know, please don't hesitate to ask=).

My boyfriend is a really gregarious, hilarious, obliging, nice, creative and smart and filled with patience. I could say that his patience is way higher than mine. He never hurt me in every ways and I really do appreciate him for his caring for me (awwwww). Frankly, this is the first long distance relationship that I ever felt comfortable and at the same time unproblematic. My boyfriend knows how to make things go from extremely wrong to as good as heaven. Whenever we argue, he knows how to calm me down and he knows how to shut my talkative mouth. He has a bit part of sensitiveness, which I’m starting to get used to it. I love him for who he is. He’s my boyfriend but at the same time my very best friend, my hero, my diary, my yesterday, today, tomorrow and future. I know it sounds too descriptive but this is factual people, factual. Whenever he gets mad, I really don’t know how to face him. He is like a totally different person, yet I still do have great feelings for this guy. Whenever we argue one phrase that he always says is “ yang! I am still talking and you’re cutting me off!” (yea, definitely, it’s my fault=)). Even though we argue from time to time, he is still my home, where I without doubt belong to. His voice is so adorable that every time I listened to him talking, I melt, and I’m being honest again. (and I’m being really corny aye?).

Overall, he unquestionably gets and A+++++++++ for the relationship grade. He is amazingly the unsurpassed love of my ordinary life!

“Booboo, I’m sorry for being so selfish and not understanding sometimes. I will always try to be the best pacar ever ya? Love you to the stars and way beyond! And, you’re so hot I can’t help it=)”.

(**Important: DING DONG! I’m not trying to advertise my boyfriend, he is definitely still in a relationship with me. Haahha)

OH JOLLY WHITE XMAS!

I cant believe its winter already!

See, when it comes to winter, all i can think about is white christmas!!!
Talking about white christmas, Ive never experienced having snow on the right date of xmas, which is the 25th of December. In my life, snow always come before or after xmas, which is sucks.
Anyhoo, xmas is just my favorite time of the year. Receiving presents make me feel really good but what is missing is that ive never had white xmas with the one i really love. One day i went to this xmas market in Vienna with bunch of my friends, which is more like a romantic place i must say, and i saw lots of couples holding hands, kissing...eating or drinking something warm together...i was like "man, this place is killing me". I just thought that how i wish my boyfriend was here. Its kind of sad to know that my boyfriend couldn't be there with me although i think he would want to. Yet I believe that one day, me and my boyfriend could spend white xmas together. If I could spend white xmas with my boyfriend, we dont have to go to christmas market, we can just look at the snow from the window and then watch DVD after that. I wouldnt mind that. As long as he is beside me, right booboo?

RECKONER.

RECKONER :: radiohead

Reckoner
You can't take it with you
Does it for the pleasure
You are not to blame for
Bittersweet distractors
Dare not speak its name
Dedicated to all you
All your needs
Because we separate
The ripples on a black shore
Because we separate
The ripples on a black shore
Reckoner
Dedicated to all you, all your needs

TO ME, YOU ARE THE WORLD

My only one, my love, my world,my life,my hero,my sweetdream,my tears,my smiles,my happiness,my problem listener,my treasure, my future, my life.